Over 40 years I have had five major points in my life where I have invented an idea or project which I found nigh impossible to persuade anyone, with the power, to fund it. Sometimes I have banged my head repeatedly against the money tree and eventually I have managed to make the project happen. It is painful and my head hurts.
This week I was turned down by the Arts Council for a project I have been nurturing for 3 years. I clearly did not manage to capture the imagination of the assessors. My need for r&d funding to bring all the research together with some artists in a room for a week was a mismatch against the needs of the funder to know exactly what the project was and who it would reach. To get the money I need to enunciate the eventual outcome better. I will take the bruise on my head like an old fighter and try again.